Hey I’m cold I don’t know whom I writing this to I’m too cold I’ve cold ice cold I’m gagging n throwing up and choking I just got my parcel imported I was happy a few days ago but now I’m not even opening it
I had taken a hobby table for 1890/- cuz my stuff wasn’t fitting in the wardrobe (smallest bottom shelf) n it was impossible for me to remove it from there cuz its hard sitting between the bed and that wardrobe there’s not even 1 ft space and there were big bags… so this one had drawers and I organised everything with a lot of effort
It gave me a small desk also on top but now I’m throwing up pls read ahead
I woke up somewhat better but I didn’t eat anything I haven’t since the whole day I’m cold
I saw that Saloni vid “Waking up with Maggie Judgemental Guy” can’t type relying on autocorrect I’m freezing
I remembered one or two lines I’d seen in the transcript it was there back then I didn’t read or watch that episode but I felt it was probably even written by Him (Harsh) now I saw and I swipe
She is my senior I saw on some wikifan base that she’s from my school but way bigger and she was looking big too (I’m younger than her) YET even tho I was only 18-20 when I met him and in 2018 I was 22 when this came out I saw the date there HE WAS STILL MAKING “OH YOU ARD SUCH A CUTE KID KINDA LOVING EXPRESSIONS” FOR HEEERRRRR” he never thought his was cute? HE SAW IT ON DATING APPS YETTT he had received my like too in fact initially he had come first n u know what had happened contd. below the pic it’s serious pls I don’t want anyone else any OTHER “woman” OBVIOUSLY to read this pls swipe/contd…
If he wanted vulgarity then I had that titillating pic too right? He wanted complete nkd like Saloni? As if it’s important to show if we don’t we are not girl under clothes? COINCIDENCE OR SIGN BELOW the pic
I remembered this or had come up when I WAS IMAGINING something exactly like this scenario I was hugging him with my legs wrapped around him and crying and my eyes were shut cuz I didn’t want to see anything or let go of him and I was saying I will forever love you I just want to die like this in ur arms and LOOK this pic had come up (that woman that ring one swipe
will be happy cuz killing me is HER PLAN she’s too over possessive he doesn’t even belong to her but she is the one who’s just not ready to let him talk) this pic was exactly like what I’d imagine and it came up 2 secs later I asked who showed it, it said Angels in the other place. Swipe there’s MORE
There was a ring in the Saloni video too and guess what he was still on dating apps pretending to be “single” and there was a woman’s handbag in 2015 when he was sending me kiss emojis, asking for my bb pin and also asking if I was single and FAKING he had a breakup for the rest of the world on Twitter
HIS PARENTS are involved in this SCAM, that’s why I’m dy-ing so miserably today he was already married to some woman in Navsari and he’s here in Mumbai to “earn” money and THEY LIE THEY ARE FOOLING AND CHEATING PEOPLE. His tight had has a gold ring there in the same finger and that HANDBAG
WAS THERE IN 2015 itself AFTER WHICH HE SENT AND WROTE ALL THAT and he even wrote “might want kids” as a preference in 2017-18 on dating apps
Our own marriage signs have been coming since 2015-16… till today and HIS PARENTS are sadistically taking advantage of his actions to see me cry cuz they are feeling great about themselves including PREET who received my message yesterday by “rejecting” me when he HIMSELF CAME (Harsh Jayesh Rajput) secondly they couldn’t have said while faking the gifts that he’s married to some aunty from there?
One more thing, I’m dizzy I have again for the 16th CONSECUTIVE day more than 100 degrees fever 🤒 I’ve cried also a lot in that since morning 6 am I’m crying 😢 i haven’t eaten anything I feel like throwing up but I can’t I just gag cuz I don’t have any food in my system
God knows who that woman is? Check his tight hand ring finger in that video Gold ring pls
He might be having hidden bacche bacche (children) also Khaandaan chupa ke laaya apne tin ke luggage mein
I’m scared its NOT funny. She’s been ruling over us my whole life was ruined because of her HE IS NOT INTERESTED IN YOU! I’ve loved him like no one else in the world for 10 YEARS ever since I was almost 18 secondly our marriage signs were coming and soulmate and FAMILY signs too I have 1000 + screenshots in my phone n read my previous post who’s she kya who’s she? I’ve ALWAYS BEEN THERE WHO ARE YOU? swipe even in the signs Tera koi naamo nishaan nahi hai
I HAD NO ONE else other than him in the whole world I still get abused and tortured at home I have faced thrashing and physical abuse since I was a kid whether it’s having my hair TEARED OUT from my crowing area (I was 12) or my teeth BROKEN (6 yrs) or my neck (swollen so much that I couldn’t switch sides while lying down) pulled and dumped on the ground from the bed broken limbs I’d shared about that long before
before reading about Saloni (even pics long ago) she cud at least leave that bf, for me there was NO escape I never trivialised her situation though SHE HAD A BF then why was he making those expressions for her? And she was looking big he should’ve made that for me… now I’m an aunty huh? He’s almost 30 in that video and I’ll be 29 in Mar yet I saw him as a kid there
I am DONE. I didn’t get what I wanted, everyone has a different idea about love I was all about - having cuddles and all “serene” love, cute love, warm and affectionate love, had to be someone older a matured man, bad boy vibes stylish like me but with a dark side I’ve made a character in the book too BUT he RUINED MY PLANS! He gave that LOOK which I wanted as a cute 7 years younger girl TO EVERYONE ELSE WHO WAS AN AMMA!
For real… see where he’s doing disturbing things like animals n lion (“seductive” lion he’s prancing and growling like that like I’ll be “wild” he does have that look ALSO) and then he made that “face” that awwww face she was looking big I was 7 years younger
she’s older than me he never felt that for me… as if that was cute the salacious script which had ZERO INNOCENCE like me! Huh? As if she was a “VIRGIN” LIKE ME I’m NOT using that but its a point to be NOTED its just like torture you don’t know what it feels like I feel like a boy here but yet ppl wud be like “poor her” everyone else is guileless except for the one suffering (jealousy? u ppl have sadism too? cruelty? Why? why do you ppl like those women? Superficiality?)
I still felt like he deserved better I wud look good but he ruined me, I am numb I had tried moving on but you know the story read my prev posts their whole obsession with “call girls” and money or ho-okers n hook-ing up, that sale pseudo feminist Saloni will have a bf and a steady relationship and there SHE WILL PROMULGATE SOMETHING NASTY WHICH KEEPS GIRLS LIKE ME ALONE FOREVER…
It’s PAINING in my heart, I wanted commitment undivided time and attention care love respect we hardly have any hours after work each day life is short youth is shorter but they wasted mine and their youth/time BOTH
That other woman whoever it is will say “oh she wrote so much about you she’s bad now fk me” as usual. It’s PAINING NOT only in my heart but also in my head nerve my eyes my face I can’t breathe it’s paining that much I’ve cried too a lot
I can’t do this anymore I can’t write I’m getting wheezing again my THROAT has a blood like taste some reading said I AM CRITICAL BUT HE IS NOT TAKING IT SERIOUSLY.
I was still thinking I won’t write this and just die this part - That I Miss You and I would’ve held his hand or kissed it (but without the ring) and I was just thinking if he would’ve been my bf I would’ve felt very lucky 😢😢😢she was touching him in the video where he was shirtless n pantless I was an untouchable for him and I didn’t even want to touch him I never saw him like that I wasn’t interested in his body idk as girls we hardly are (Ill write this part cuz i am
planning to die anyway I was right though being alive made things worse) swipe If I would’ve been with him
She’s reading it who the hell is she? How dare you? You have NO RIGHT no signs you are no one for him… she’ll say she would’ve touched after reading this fk off I would’ve pulled his cheeks while sleeping or there’s a word cafuné which means running ur fingers through someone’s hair
Then kissed his hand bye 😢😘 I don’t want to live like I said it’ll just keep getting worse I have very high fever I have to be dead it is getting worse in fact there’s no one to even help me or erase my memory and there’s no future or present it’s BECAUSE of him didn’t want to write that but they’ll tell him I had “my own reasons” and blame it on melancholic depression when it’s clearly NOT that.
Stop blaming the one who’s going through all this, that is what is wrong that’s why we remain alone our whole lives. Its UNFAIR there were many signs too
I have to be dead. Today just proved why I should’ve died yesterday I’ve shared those book plans which I had pls see that post I had something very worthwhile to show u, a very big secret, it’s also a wonderful story based on real life signs and incidents and pls read that can’t type BYE FOREVER
- Zara Sauleh
BOOK related signs which I never shared before they are quite surprising
She'll say what dialogues n puns out of jealousy... please don't poke ur nose in my business. The STORY HAD to be out there's something very important for people, parents, everybody-there's a reason why it's not about Harsh but yeah his signs have actually unfolded it
BIG COINCIDENCE BELOW
The book - don’t underestimate me we all deserve a chance, it was the first time I was writing something other than poems or articles, it was challenging cuz it had to be based on REAL LIFE signs I was given a broken sad story (of my own life) and I had to turn it into something interesting the signs would’ve amused you but there had to be answers… SECONDLY
I learnt how to write a book even though I’ve always been a cinephile and I understood why ppl say books are better than the movie adaptation, nonetheless I also decided how I wud execute those scenes and I would’ve jotted them down in my book journal I had taken that too and I got matching paper packs and stickers EXACT ONES which normally wouldn’t have been there for the rest of us I just stumbled upon them without even looking swipe
I got this sensation which drew me to a site after nudging it for 3 days I went there and I saw nothing maybe I should’ve looked further I then again got that site in my head several times so I went back and it had something related to my FAV SCENE swipe
which was is easily available anywhere and its not something generic so you won’t find it it had a fancy font too I love all that and it was perfectly made for the size of a journal. SwipeMORE SIGNS BELOW
It had one more thing based on one of the chapters and here’s more there was a set of lace stickers somewhere which had a ring so I thought I’ll skip it, then guess what? I saw it had more things related to the book and the pack itself was called - “THE MAGIC BOOK” I have it. (This wasn’t imported it was from here) Swipe
Next, umm this part… I was slowing it down at some point in one scene I knew what background score or music I wanted to keep and I knew WHY I wanted to do that so I had big plans and I wanted to add a lot of clues here and there too (subtle implications) cuz there are many swipe
teenagers who pay attention to that I WAS ALSO one of them and I wud nag whoever wud watch with me and keep asking them… “Did you understand that? It had a meaning there, it symbolised something” and they wud get so pissed, that’s why I wanted to keep all that throughout the book or film, I also had to DESIGN THE WHOLE TIMELINE cuz swipe
The secrets (each) unfold separately and they connect later. It was a bit tedious to do all that, I wud make checklists even now I have plenty of notes I’ve written 1 lakh 29k words I’m not boasting but it wasn’t easy and I’ll have to relinquish that now while DYIN-G I’m giving up. In all my dreams, hopes etc. I’m only dying with these bad awful memories which don’t include me, and that unwanted untouchable lip virgin/virgin tag
- Zara Sauleh
Scientific reason as to WHY it's the other way round. Guys need to look good boy girls or else it pains us. I've shared long ago why or how, it's not just about being attracted aroused or lubricated, the bud or walls don't open up either to fit those ugly big tools they boast about! That's why even lubricators don't work and rape victims or wives they complain that no matter what even if they try to arouse them it's just a half way stimulative response it doesn't actually work! No wonder.
So STOP FORCING girls IT IS FORCE we are co-dependent! What u do impacts and forces me to be with someone like that it's worse than forcing for urself he's throwing me to the wolves
This isn’t about Harsh but he has to learn this:
I saw a girl (review) who had the exact same features as some man I’d seen a few days earlier and even though you would say she deserved him or he was her soulmate SHE HAD EVERY RIGHT TO DECLINE she was fat, she was average weight wise, she wasn’t stylish or smart and the features were exactly the same BUT she was swipe
NOT unacceptable, she was sweet and soft and the man was downright creepy, he was too ugly and scary looking men are always intimidating swipe
They are WORSE and it PAINS GIRLS if they are not attracted (which makes it first degree
ra-pe) SO STOP COMPARING and EQUATING them in terms of looks they never see what’s inside and those girls might have more potential, swipe
girls are smarter more interesting and intelligent SO ENUF stop underestimating until you give a chance you won’t know and you are deliberately NOT cuz you probably dooo know
We are not born for all this. We get ovulation and pms hot patches, bloating, breakouts, brittle hair n it makes it worse we have a slower metabolism, low haemoglobin count etc. what’s their reason? I’ll tell you… these average men are internally boring and average too cuz unlike girls it’s THEIR QUALITY OR MAKE for us we all look like that due to other reasons which I’ve listed above swipe there’s MORE
I had said 1% which DIDNOT include a fair complexion, height or money or body type but I can’t be with someone 0 or below in minus it pains I’ve read their exp even I am a virgin in my condition I won’t be able to bear it MOREOVER they are too scary I’m into designing and sets I have an aesthetic line I can’t be with someone this creepy but now HE HAS RUINED everything - Zara Sauleh
