the Victorious Woman
There’s no real achievement in the world’s narrative of a “Victorious Woman” according to them you’ve got to be your own King, Knight in a shining armour, Prince, Warrior everything so that you can live your entire life like you meant to… all alone in some sort of an ivory tower or exile, it’s a punishment more than an honour which includes selfless (and rather baseless) altruism based on the loving & nurturing instincts of a Woman… she’s got to be everyone’s Mother Teresa, it means never getting any love cuz you are some sort of a consecrated celibate self designated nun, and you are still expected to give lots of it from nowhere… to the entire world all your life, you are supposed to get up every time you are pushed around on your own cuz you are independent, you don’t need anyone, you are on an exemplary mission to spread love and happiness without seeking out your own, you have to teach kids at blind school, cook for the needy, talk to yourself, love yourself, get yourself flowers and then die and bury yourself in the sands of an hourglass. There’s no victory in that. Its better to lose than to win this title or badge of honour (I was already stuck with “Lip Virgin”) it’s nothing but what the world wants to see adamantly, it has nothing in it for us. Hence I’m dying with defeat rather than victory cuz I’ve not been made for a lonely existence like this, I’m not that great. Well at least the Devil communicates more than Harsh Rajput who’s apparently bigger than him. I’m dying I lost but it’s better than winning all that glory which is only convenient for your impotent sons, who cannot actually man up to rescue a Damsel in Distress, Prince Charmings indeed are for Princesses never said I was one, this is exactly why I wanted a cooler Robin Hood, he saves the girl, the Damsel and wins her heart, it was always the guy’s part to earn that victory but they changed the entire story into some boring soliloquy, hence I’d said “Stories never stop with THE END they always end with and they lived happily ever after again…”
Zara Sauleh
One last Coincidence: “This is not where angels fear to tread, it’s where the Devil frets…”
I had once shared what message he had sent me through my cousin’s story the Devil can read our minds ppl will think I’m lying go fetch those coincidences that happened the messages he had sent me soon after I thought something, they were based on the EXACT same stuff. And this has happened more than once btw. Previously after an intense fight regarding those changing signs/coincidences at 5 am or so I was thinking about the Devil and everything and how bad it was and I knew he would come there was a sound in my room near the door passage, it was completely dark I had switched off everything that night but I was like I’m too tired to look or get scared and I’ve never been fearful ever since I was a kid I was busy crying… I had no time for him :/ to even bother. I told him a month ago or so I swear on your head I will win no matter what, I will win… and if at all I don’t, if I lose then you’ll be gone too cuz I’ve sworn on your head. Its like he heard me (read my mind I wasn’t verbalising it) cuz then my music app played a song and accidentally again I slid the track bar the lines which played were “Tu aisi baazi hai Oo yaara jisko mai jeeta bhi jisko mai haara bhi tu aisi galti hai toh sun le Yeh galti hogi dubara bhi” Yes I’m losing and you are going down with me.
Real Tragedy.
Time to spite people one last time before dying after all these years (10 years) as a virgin 🤍 It’s a beautiful pic, get used to it. I never had love or that normal life that adults typically do. Women need to be in love or they have to aroused so that they are lubricated and there’s no pain or else it’s simply Rape, I can’t even let a man touch me if I’m not in love with him or he’s NOT OF MY CHOICE. Hence it’s the other way around, men need to be attractive to arouse us cuz we bear the pain, they need to have certain qualities cuz I’ve figured women are intrinsically born with them. The tragedy in India is, over here even the least bit of handsome & sophisticated/educated (decent looking men) are all Gay & Impotent and all the ugly ones are perverts, and stop saying that’s because they are desperate… they can be ugly, dumb & cheap and yet they get married before us, we don’t, we inspite of being intelligent and eligible die as spinsters and virgins.
